greatly needed update

wow blogger is so...dead. hahaha, oh well, posting because i had crazy dreams all last night...but i can only remember a few scenes, and one scene very vividly because i told it to keane when i woke up at 5am and ran to his room scared.

*breathes* wat a run-on sentence! lol

mmmm ok.....pretty much, im pretty sure i was this boy, and i was lying on the ground in a forest..i think it was semi-dark, and the wind was blowing harshly. there was a young lady in a white dress floating not far away in front of me, she looked kinda like...me? cept way prettier, so then i guess i thought i (the boy) was keane? but not rlly...ne way she was wearing a long white silk scarf (same material as her dress) and it flew out behind her as she stood there and we talked. there's an opening behind her and u can see the city sprayed out against a darking sky (i guess we're on a hill) she's asking me for directions somewhere, and in the dream this all made sense..i mean there was a story to it but i forgot everything that happened before this scene. ne...way, very scary thing happens when suddenly this giant ball and honestly, i could see it vividly...it was a sphere and it had this bar thing going around it...it dropped from the sky and landed on the city. i shouted to the girl not to go because the aliens were coming, but she seemed rlly...ditzy? sort of, and just ignored it...i let it go too, we both seemed to be very simple minded, she was about to go again when suddenly a smaller ball thingie lands right beside me. i call out to the girl desperatly, she turns around and i reach out a hand to her, she reaches back and i grab her hand only to pull her into a great hug just as the ball thingie goes off. a blast of light hits us, and i hear a weird/strange sigh coming from the two of us as we melt and fold together within the light.

it was a *rlly* strange feeling. i had even stranger dreams later on...i can barely remember so itz not worth saying, and weirder dreams before. man ive been hafin sooo many weird dreams. thing is about the alien/apocalypse ive had dreams about it before and i hafnt even been doing ne thing alien related or thinking about it at all! >.<>.<>.<> HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH..........AHAHAHAHAHHA *wipes tears* no.

lol


harry potter!!!!! HERBIVICOUS! WING-GUARDIAN LEVIOSA!!!

ahhh such a funny game. crazy load times and insane rock throwing contests. look itz a bean!!!

thinking of redoing my room..not sure if it'll happen today or not *o* we shall see.


=3

haf a ahpapy holidays all!




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couple of hours later:

ok been cleaning out my room...all this old stuff been throwing away, cutting myself off of them and being hard-core about my choices. things i rlly cherished as a child just chunked into the garbage. i kno i gotta do it or else ill haf shit laying around everywhere....my mom got rid of practically all my teddy bears and im eyeing one i think im going to keep...altho im not sure why. we're taking a break now and as i was upstairs i heard a sad tune coming from a music box...i peeked down the stairs at the two enormous bags of toys and felt my heart squeeze. the song played on until it slowly died...like my childhood being snuffled out. thats when i started getting teary eyed and panicing - thinking about their names and wat they meant to me ...and and..MY LITTLE PONIES ARE ALL GONE....my mom kept all my beanies babies for investment purposes i guess...but but...my little ponies!! omfg itz a sin.

i over-exaggerate (about the ponies)

but yeah...sigh, i feel like i should go through them and save a few of them, but i know it's not a good thing to do because i have so many...seriously. the saddest thing is getting rid of the one i slept wid...omg i can see it from here...plz make another kid happy!! T_T omg the tears. but seriously...its upsetting...going thru all my old stuff...drawings...notes to people...i wanna keep them >.> i kept all the stuff i got from keane tho :$ haha...threw out a lot of stupid stories too.

ne way...tata childhood, hello real-world and (i think?) more adult renae....=(

baibai